clay

What a humbling lesson

Last nite was supposed to be a discipleship group meeting. Slowly one by one gave out news that they couldn't come. Until the end, nobody turned up.

Was feeling sad to be honest...although trying my best to look at the positive side. However, more of sadness than joy. For the people that still haven't gotten their priority in life right. For people that are not valuing God's Word much. Perhaps for myself that's not being prayerful enough.

Lately, this message that were coming to me. It's about prayer. And i think...it's time to get it right. Time to be on my knee once again. Setting a time.

Guess you'll probably see more a silly guy on his knee.

clay

Just talking with a sister, who happened my colleague as well

Still the same message i heard

You need to pray

I need to pray

I'm asking which road Lord?

Which position should i take?

Which ministry should i take?

Which meeting should i attend?

Which group to minister?

I know the answer

On bended me I come

And God will make everything

beautiful in their times

On bended knee

I resign all my queries

And look upwards for His guidance

It's the job of the shepherd to lead

clay

Just glad that i've passed another week. Finished the 2km run as part of the Corporate Triathlon ... had really great fun last Saturday. Also finished the long week of preparing to teach the children through game. Work at office wasn't that many. And the struggle to keep my health up that i could do all the things well.

This coming week is a big challenge for me. There're so many things to be done. Work to be coordinated. Deadline to be met. People to be called. Reservation to be made. Preparation to be completed. And assignment to be passed. Also gospel to be shared. Fellowship to be nurtured. And brothers sisters in Christ to be built up.

I need the wisdom to make right judgment.

the strength to complete the task

the love to deal with people

And i know on bended knee i receive.

clay

Just opened letter from my sis. It just make one's day

After all the tiredness of a hard week and prayer if i can go through tomorrow safely then i know that God can bring me through anything...my sis letter was like an injection that energize me enough

thank u Lord ...surely u know my strength till tis much

clay

thankful for the good things i have:

a band of brothers who're very dear to me ... really thankful for their presence in my life ... become my closest family here

good friends that pray for me

a very wonderful place to live and rest at night

a prayerful mother

a good Lord who loves me more than i know

clay

Hmm...once again i follow the public pressure

Actually have not had the time to reflect and consolidate things around birthday. Also based on my pass habits ... normally i combine it with the New Year reflection and resolution

Yet to satisfy some people curiosities .... here some the things i'd like to say:

1. Really thankful for the people in my life (condomates, overseas friends, old buddies, families, and the close friends). One way or the other...each said in different ways and events and made it unique and memorable for me

2. Get over on the past. Yup =) Perhaps one of the thing i remember and treasure that on this birthday i can be certain whatever things in the past had been settled

3. A new hope As thinking for changes in the new year. Will see how things turn up...and always to remember to trust in the Lord and not my own understanding. (easier to say than done).

4. Lastly perhaps the feeling good thing At age 27, i feel healthy, fit, and strong =) hehehe ..... but yesterday i just sprain my left shoulder ... to prove that everything of mine is just fragile.

hehe ...

if this little sharing didn't satisfy u ... let me know ... will update as much as i'm comfortable

clay

Feeling disappointed and downcasted (

These few days had felt there's something wrong with me ...

And today realized how bad am i really ........

A super stubborn guy ... though some had given this feedback, never really listen to it. Till i realized how stubborn i could be.....nothing can move me....( i'd rather go on with my choice ... even if it meant to be alone against everyone and everything...(

And another thing is the unlimited pride that almost incurable .... ( It often disguises herself in many forms, yet she's always there (. I don't know if I could ever get rid of it. Feeling disgusted with myself.....hopeless?

clay

Yup...last week was a scarry one.

I had taken half of my sick leave entitlement this year. Have never met anyone like me before .... some takes 2, others take 1, others have not taken their sick leave, and one even only took 1 day in 3 years. So i didn't want to add another one (have taken 7 days this year).

Weekend i had the dreaded Children Camp ... looking after 10 children in group of total 100 children. Not to mentione teach them the Bible in group of 20+ children. Sleeping late at night, being watchful through out the nite (for some problematic children), and woke up early in the morning for devotion. Being active throughout the day, being sharp almost all the time to discipline the mischievious, being cheerful when some are downcasted, being encouraging when the food taste bit awful, being strong in spirit when they feel tired to continue the game.

I did some mistakes though .... losing somebody's cap that entrusted to me, was not sensitive enough when a child miss his home, not sensitive enough to discipline with love...instead i used brute force, and not sensitive enough in my dealing with a little girl..

above all, thank God for recover the lost cap, settling all the problems, and lastly sustaining me and just came back from another long day of work and meeting with old friends....what can i say?

..... only 2 words ......