It's quite funny. I have been exchanging email with someone that i've not met before. Have been wondering how the person on the other side looks like. Probably, deep down, true relationship requires reality. To be able to relate to the person that we have never seen before ... i guess it's very hard, if not impossible.

Last nite, the thought came back to me (thinking about it few years ago). My greatest longing probably, and also satisfaction....to be able to see the face of God. The thought was really waow.... And set me back on the right track once again. At the end of the day, one thing i want is ... to see the face of God. The face that noone has seen, the face that i can't see, but the person that i've known, and yet i want to know more.

The feeling will be very great then. To be able to see His face, and know Him as i am fully known. )

It's quite a crazy week last week.

I told someone to wait for me...wait patiently...coz i won't be able to update or do any personal stuff...

It went quite crazy, at work i was handling a very large account project. One of the biggest customers. I can't imagine if something goes wrong. Perhaps for first time in my life that I asked the question: "Why me? O Lord". Things didn't work, and the stress level was high. My boss already told me that I have no choice but to understand the thing....which I don't know how much time going to take....when the delivery date is at the end of the week.

Tuesday i stayed late, and managed to solve some major parts. The previous group didn't do their job. What they had was not the correct thing, and so I dig the old database and compare to make things work.  Reached home i just thought i need a lot of rest, coz i felt tired mentally and mindly. But thank God, i was saved from understanding the whole things that will make me crazy.

Wednesday, i finished my work and ready to go for Bible Study. However was too sick to go. The whole head was spinning and got nausea. Thank God again for the rest, so Thursday i was better, and I had some plans of what i need to do.

Thurs, asked a friend to visit Teofani Grace. After work, went for dinner, then visit the family. Initially thought it's a short visit, just say hi, read the Word, pray, and say bye. However, we're there, listening to their stories and struggles, shared words of God, prayed, and gave her the little dog toy. I can't remember any such deep and thankful eyes saw me before. She can't move or speak, but i can see that she wants to say thank you for the gift. Again i reached home late night. And left with the letter i've to rite. Else it's going to be too late. By God's grace, i finished the letter before I slept. And had good rest that nite.

Fri after work, together with my colleagues we played tennis. Started from 7pm, lasted until 10pm. When i reached home, had my dinner, needed to clean the kitchen and make the pudding for tomorrow social at my place. I felt no more energy and my eyes were very tired.

So saturday morning, i went to buy the pasta, boil it, at same time did my laundry, cleaned the kitchen + cleaned the toilet, making sure the house is clean and tidy. Finished everything by 12 noon,  telling myself i've no more time and energy to make the pudding. So be it. The whole afternoon - evening being with them, enjoying the food, plus playing games. Was wonderful. However, when they finished....was too tired to carry on with anything useful like some exercise.

Sunday morning, brought my "sister" to church she wanted to visit. We're lost and had to walk accross a hill... What an experience. She asked me whether i prayed first before I brought her there. I don't think i've prayed first. So perhaps that's why we lost our way....What a shame. Then having lunch and went to city to buy external hardisk. By the time we got everything, already 4 pm. I rushed to meet Grace's father coz he wanted to come to church. And there my handphone run out battery. I prayed hard that he will be able to come, coz i told him the direction already. At the end, God answered my prayer....manage to find him after service and saw him out.

Reached home abt 8.30 pm, I settled some group decision, then had my dinner, wrote a very long email for another group, cleaned the house, took shower, and time already 11 pm.

What a week.

And i told myself that I still owe few people. Few works. Few emails. Few chapters of books. I'm owing too many things. Thank God that Im still alive. Maybe i'm anxious and worry about too many things. Help me therefore......seek Ye first.

 

Today is a valentine day.

Surprisingly it's not much work.

People are chatting relaxly.

And slowing down the working pace.

Seems like a holiday to me.

I'm running a set of tests on the other PC.

While typing my blog on another PC.

My mind started to lose focus after 5 times of switching looking into different screen and doing different type of work.

Just been thinking about life & time.

If I could know the end of my life.

I'd probably live a wiser life.

Been in status quo for some times.

Ignoring all the invitations that came to me.

Have not been doing good so far in this matter.

Keeping quiet and avoid communicating.

Perhaps there're some resentment and frustration on the other side.

But again my nature to laugh at all those frustration.

And seek the importance of self to rule others in this manner.

O, I need discernment.

It's hard thing to poke into someone's mind.

To know what they're thinking, and even feeling.

The deep thoughts and feeling.

That perhaps only known when one make the inner search.

Teach me dear Lord, to fish that inner things out.

With wisdom and love. 

Good thing this year the Lunar New Year fall on Sunday.

So i had good dinner on Sat nite. First time i tried to drink whiskey...and realized later why a lot of people are scared (43% alcohol). Some people were not around, made this year quietter than previous years. One thing i noticed, people seems older this year. And they admitted they felt older....does it mean that when u feel older u looks older? Or because u look older therefore you feel older?

Sunday as custom, went for visiting some relatives. And this year a nice arrangement for me. The last place is near to the next destiny. And they're about to leave, same direction as my place..so they sent me home

Then Monday & Tue are public holiday. I enjoyed the rest. And more importantly...got a lot of rubbish to clear...and lessen my load as if i need to move place....Also time to read books....how i enjoy. I am really benefited bcs this rest. How i regain back the right perspective. About ministry and many other things. Lord...help me to get my priority correct. And to keep the main things as main things.

Yup that's all

Yesu gei nin ping an

 

This evening when i opened my inbox, i was surprised to receive an email from my student. He has asked me long time ago, when he saw my funny email address

I was surprised and guessing what he might write inside. When i opened his email, there're only 2 lines:

"How are you? Hope to see you again next week."

My tears almost dropped when i read it. It's another tough week (got to work on my colleague's project bcs he went home for long holiday, need to stay by my other's colleague for it's a team project, and got a lot of things to settle as ppl coming to me asking questions and with their problems in life).

And i know that because last week there's no Sunday School (due to Chinese New Year). And this week also there wont be Sunday School (due to Family Service). So he will only see me again next week. The simplicity, sincerity, and earnesty of those two sentences melted my heart. Thanks Mitchell. You just made a difference in my life

 

I've thought abt this for several times...that's to end my service with the children. It's been quite number of years since i teach children, and been thinking to look for other things. After all, isn't it just kind repetitive? I've grasped the basic principles...and that's good enough.

Just finished preparing for a short talk for this coming Sunday. And i realized how much i'm refreshed with truths i found. How much i'm refreshed and love rekindled as result of hours spent in laboring to come with good talk for them. I can't stop wondering if life would be better without them.

As i mentioned to few people before. It's perhaps a ministry where i get more than i give. At the end, i learn more, receive more, and become better....I wonder if God gives me this and put me here not because i want to, but because i need it. Often in life, what we need is not what we want. Give me therefore Lord, my daily bread

My housemate just bought a Nintendo Wii last Sunday.

WaowwWW..........hahahaha..............i enjoy the games...and watching some guyz doing cool & funny actions in front of the TV....huahahahaha...

I just hope there's no accident either on the TV or the person "dancing" around...

Can't imagine if they're going to come out with sensor on the foot. And games like WWE Smackdown...haha