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I've been waiting very long to write this title
And God's so gracious to give the date 2nd also
I do pray that this beginning will end beauitfully.
In that sense...then it will be real 2nd grace.

The 1st grace referring to my salvation. The pardon of sins and the hope of eternal life. The best thing ever and forever will be. The greatest gift God gives me. It's grace because i don't deserve. And it's the 1st because it's the greatest thing.

The 2nd grace...referring to the day she said 'yes'. And grace because i don't think i deserve. And 2nd because God entrusted me with so precious thing .... another person.

And i pray that i'll forever remember ... that they're costly. Bought with a price. The first is the death of JEsus. The second is bended knees.

Thank you Lord.
Thank u my lil lady :D

It happened 3 years ago. Almost the end of our studies. I asked them this question: "What have you learnt so far?" - referring to the book of 1 Peter. And as normal as children, they can't summarize thing yet, so they will tell the recent things they know / heard / learnt.

I was not very surprised when their answers around the things we've taught them or things they just heard recently. Until one girl told me the thing she learnt: "God cares for me" ~ 1 Peter 5 : 7 ~ . And it surprised me....because we didn't stress that point and how could she get that when nobody taught that / mentioned that earlier on?

I guess the surprise still linger in my mind. Till 3 years later my mind came back to this, and i'm very glad that she got the point earlier than I I often tell people and myself the need to be at chidren's level whenever we're dealing with them. And yet, actually i'm still not yet downed at their level. I'm still so tall & high with adult minds...that i missed out the small & simple thing that a child sees.

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. ~ 1 Peter 5 : 7 ~

It may not the "big" thing that adults talk and discuss about. For certainly there're many "big" things adults like to discuss in 1 Peter. But it's a big thing for a child (that God cares for him/her). And i think now, it's a big thing even for adults For adults do have their troubles and anxieties....and knowing that even big God cares for little us....that matters, a lot.

Thank you Jezreel

It took just less than 1 week ... and there're so many misunderstandings led to unnecessary hurting feelings
thank God who keeps us

Part of my one year bible reading plan, i'm supposed to read my whole bible in a year. And the time came for the book of Hosea. Well, i studied the book just recently, even lead some studies, and most probably remember it by heart already. Can i skip this part and can those studying counted as i've read the book?

Then i decided that i should not be lazy. The more i read the better it will be. So i read chapter 1, 2, till i read the following verses:


And she (referring to nation Israel) did not know
that it was I who gave her
the grain, the wine, and the oil,
and who lavished on her silver and gold,
which they used for Baal.

And I will punish her for the feast days of the Baals
when she burned offerings to them
and adorned herself with her ring and jewelry,
and went after her lovers
and forgot me, declares the LORD.

~ Hosea 2 : 8, 13 ~


The word was addressed to the nation of Israel. God judged them because they didn't acknowledge God for the gifts they received (grain, wine, oil, silver, gold, etc) both the crops from fertile soil and natural resources from the ground underneath. Instead they use those gifts to worship other gods (Baals in their case).

Those words of judgment to them then and warning to us now (of forgetting God) were not very relevant to me then to now. At least that time when i studied few months back...it didn't speak much to me. All the dangers being mentioned (cars, condos, money, children, relationships......honestly i didn't have any of those things) And i was wondering how could those things lead to sin.

As compare to now, i know it well...good enough....that yes, i could forget God because the gift is so good. Indeed God gives good gifts. And i'm in danger to forget God and worship this new relationship

Thank you Lord for reminding me
And indeed His Word is always true.
There's no one so expert that he/she doesn't need to read it again and again. There's no one who truly humble him/herself to listen and go away unchanged. For it's living and active to test our hearts:

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. ~Hebrews 4 : 12~

In response to somebody's remark about a bad & a good life, here what some points i managed to think through. You may agree/disagree.

The reality of suffering.
It's one of the most profound and debated topic in all circles. How can a good God allow suffering? Or will God make people suffer? If God in control, why did He allow suffering (the natural disasters, poverties, hungers, diseases, etc)?

There's 3 ways at least for me to answer that honestly.
1. Suffering is the consequences of this fallen world. As fallen world (bcs of man's sins), it's natural to expect disease & disasters. Hence it's expected thing. And consequences of man's sins too....that we see crimes, poverties, and hungers .... for the selfishness of the rich some and the jealousies of the poor.

And to this aspect, I give thanks to God who promises of a new world. The world he will create when Jesus comes again. The new world where there will be no more disease, death, disaster, and tears. A perfect world

2. God not only allows suffering as part of human's life. But He sticks to the rule, and he played this 'game' fair. There's no better description than this fairness. That Jesus lived and experienced sufferings more than most of us ever experience. He was beaten, stripped, nailed, hanged on the cross, pierced.....and those happened as results of people's conspiracies & betrayals. God allows suffering, and he tasted it to the fullest. He didn't skip / escape it .....

3. Last, the knowledge that God knows our sufferings, and He cares. I think that's the last defence i can put up, when all my mind and rationalization has far gone. The fact that God knows (even when a bird falls or a hair drop, God knows) and God cares (when Saul persecuted Christians....Jesus confronted him as he's actually persecuting Jesus himself).
When i cannot make sense of suffering, the comforting this is that God knows, and He cares (as the book of Job fully answers that about suffering on good people) that God's wisdom is higher than ours and He knows what He's doing.

So in the face of sufferings, a Christian view of life should not be pessimistic .... and it should not be cursing & swearing to God. For all this will one day gone, and God cares even in the midst of suffering.

And when good things happen:
1. A people that giving thanks & praise to God
2. A people that acknowledge God as the giver of all good things

That may in bad times or good times .... our lives give glory to God

Last 2 weeks were quite frustrating at work. Many new projects came in....to be completed in short time, and then once completed, "my" customer delaying the approval.......

Frustrating because when they came...all were "urgent" requests....but once the good delivered.......no approval of completion ........ And of course, my boss evaluate me based on the approvals.....

Only today i understood the reason. For one of the projects got a bug. And thank God it was not approved. For having an approved project with bug is far worse than pending for approval projects

Ok,.......lesson learnt today......not become frustrated, when there're delays of expectation or things not according to my plan...
But yah.....certainly God has always better plan. He sees further than what I could see.