It depends some people say.
Sometimes it can be a simple thing just to wait.
And sometimes, it can be really trying...to wait.

When it gets really trying....that's what happened with me.
Been waiting for ...
But thank God for His grace.
In a new light, I could bear and learn from it.
The waiting becomes bearable and meaningful.
That across my mind, it won't matter much.
If He asked me to wait, longer than my expectation.
For truly...He's more precious than silver.
More costly than gold.
More beautiful than diamond.
And nothing i desire, compares with Him.
In the light of Him, all my desires lost in comparison.
That if i could get Him....if the wait is the price....so be it.

I know then.
It deepens my trust in Him.
It trains my eyes of faith.
And it makes me treasure Him even more.
That at the end, the joy of receiving will also be greater.

To Him who waits on me.
I wait Lord, for Thee.

Today is the last day of one my good colleagues
Time passed rather fast.
It has been 3.3 years.
We sit together in the same cubicle

When the person is really gone.
Then the feeling struck really hard.
I remember...
That's the difficult part.

Time does pass really fast.
When it seems like yesterday.
When we all just new.
And everything seems like a beginning.

When the last day came.
I know now, it's hard.
No matter how much we prepare ourselves.
All the best

~for my dear cubicle mate
for the joy we shared
and arguments we fought
only to get some attention~

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. ~ Romans 8 : 28 ~

I believe that "all things"mean "bad things" also.
What a different attitude it would be, from the general outlook of life.
When i'm so used to and live by it day by day.

When bad things happened, blame it to the bad luck. Nothing we can do, just accept it. It's part of life anyway. Either that, or drop it all together, and run away. And some people sadly, drop their life....

Some tough people though, will fight, if not pass the blame to others...even to the courts. Sometimes they get what they want, or get rid of the problems. Sometimes they lose. It's just a game of life anyway. Or is it not?

What Paul wrote, was totally a different thought and attitude altogether. There's no coincidence or such things called luck (good or bad). But all things work together for good. It may be something "good" or "bad" or even "really bad". But they work together for good. The end result is good. Be it the good of the person, other person, or even the good of God?
Looking at the context of the text, more likely, it's the good of the person

When next time somebody say to me, "too bad", i will say, "it's for my good"

i've quite forgotten the anxiety of passing a test as a student. Since the day has quite some times passed... I thought whaat a needless anxieties and worries. When i look back at those years....i thought why did i worry so much about passing those tests?

And when some friends took their master course, they too faced exams and worried... i thought....why did you worry so much?

And currently i'm facing a test... at least my work will be tested by people from other company....and i did feel anxious....hahahaha

That now i think it's something about the nature of a test.
For a test is meant to find out the quality of our works. If we pass, means we're approved/certified/qualified....whereas when we fail, it means our work has poor quality or has not met the requirements. And that's something that causes human being to worry. For we expect to pass, but we don't know completely if what we've done is good enough.

In that understanding, then a test is good. It brings out our best to reach certain standard/quality. It's meant for good, to set a minimum standard.
The next time i hear someone share to me about their stress in facing a test, surely i will be much gentler and understanding

For the public eyes, the main characters are always the special thing. For they're the highlight of the show/performance.
And certainly the crowd come for the main performers.

Yet i just thot,
that among the crowd,
there're those who come not for the main show
they come for their special ones.
who may be among the little tiny roles among the stars

It could be the small boy/girl at the corner that no eyes could notice.
Or whose role may not seem significant to the whole performance.

Yet i think, they are happier than the main star
when they know that they're special
in the eyes of somebodies.
that they don't need to be somebody
in order to be considered special
but because they're special
regardless what the public may think of them

Often we're disillusioned,
to think we're important because our roles or our influence
forgetting that there're people
who think we're important
because we are
special
to them


feeling special :p

just feeling the hurt of what i thot a genuine relationship, while actually the other party didn't take it so.

it hurts....
even when i try to rationalize
or giving excuses

i think at the very core of a relationship
is sincerity
without it
it's only a transaction...exchanging of goods and services

i think now i understand better
what penpen been saying
'it takes two to tango'
and 'take me not as a project'

Oh no, it's not abt me & penpen :p

I know you are enduring patiently and bearing up for my name’s sake, and you have not grown weary. ~ Rev 2 : 3 ~

Last nite as I read the words, it's one of the most beautiful words i've ever heard.
'The words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand, who walks among the seven golden lampstands.
"'I know your works, your toil and your patient endurance, ..." (Rev 2 : 1-2)

The very fact that He knows, is sufficient.
Regardless of the works,
Regardless of the toils,
And the patient endurance
The very fact that He knows,
is sufficient

He knows those who endure patiently
He knows those who bear up for His name sake
and He knows those who have not grown weary
He knows

Just when i was tempted to give up
Just when i thought i was alone
Just when i thought all these bearing up is meaningless
The very fact that He knows
makes all the difference

For i know
Seeing His face
And just a smile of Him
Is all i ever asked