clay

Last nite finally I moved out from SBC.

On one hand, i felt disappointed with the decision and hurt.

However, on the other hand, i understand better now the feeling of hurt wife.

For when she decided to "submit" to her husband, she is taking all the decisions her husband makes. And when the husband made unwise / unloving decisions, it hurts (furthermore when the wife had told him many times and pleaded with him, yet he chose to ignore her feelings & concerns).

So yes, there's always this lesson one can learn in receiving bad treatment. That we will not do the same to others.

Apart from the hurt & disappointment, I'm glad that finally I made the move.

It means going back to the old place with the old friends. And found them as good as they were .

Thank God for good friends. And my SBC friends too, they're more than helpful last nite. Really proud for them .

I told my granduncle, that among those guyz, Asia, Europe, and Africa was represented . Unfortunately there's no America & Australia....hehe...

And after the 2 round trips, suddenly my granduncle's car battery went off.

Good thing on me. If the battery died earlier, we might stuck on highway for hours ....

Thank God for the protection in all these things.

And here good colleagues too are around. Thank God for all these.

clay

Thank God for saving me from bitterness. It took a wise woman who reminded me of Romans 8:28 - "that for those who love God all things work together for good." Even in this unfair treatment and unfavorable situation, there's still God who works that ALL things will be for good of those who love Him.

It's been bugging me for the last few days. I thought it's easy to simply forget the thing and let go (as often i've done in my life). However this thing particularly i found it very hard. The prejudices had hurt me, and the final decision and attitude too...made me feeling sick.

However, the word of Scripture really does miracle healing far beyond what I can do. I gave it up trying to fix it myself. Trying hard to forget and accept the matters. Only then surrendering to Him all my hurt and pain, that I could release forgiveness. In return, I felt free. That instead of looking back to what happened, I can move forward, trusting that God works this for my good.

So yah, it has lost its grip on me. Whatever done, in God's power I declare victory.

clay

Yesterday was the prayer group sessions.

Met with 2 different groups and the same prayer request .

Basically to cope with now 6 things in life (work, study, wedding preparation, ministry, relationship, and family backhome), on top the human relationship in each areas... 

Same responses from both groups...."how do you manage?"

I tell them plainly, "I don't know"

In one sense, I really don't know how to handle all these, and I don't know how am I going to handle it. On the other hand, I think as it came to me again and again (as one professor noted), that only God's grace enables me. And in this sense, it's good that I don't know. For when I know, I begin to execute my own plans and solutions, instead of depending on God.

Not to say that I don't have to make plans or do work, or struggle with my studies and make time for relationships. But in a sense that if I had a full-proof plan how to juggle 6 things in life....I would be doomed to fail. And it would not be good testimony for others. I might come up with a book title 7 habits of effective management or managing stress, or etc....and forgetting that it's only God's grace in my life that keeps me going and keeps everything come into place. And i must thank pen2x who's supporting me & going through all these

Yah... hope this short testimony would be encouragement

Remembering an old saint prayer: "lead me wherever as long as you go with me, load me whatever as long as you carry me"

clay

Yesterday we're looking for pair of watches. It's a memorable experience. We've been doing this for awhile now, going out together to get things for the big day . And as we're waiting for the shopworker engraving our rings, we went to the watch shop next door. There we found quite reasonable watches, after 65% discount. And as there're still 10 minutes left, we decided to go the opposite watch shop.

The price were more expensive and we did not think could find anything there. No harm asking though, so we asked the man there name David, and gave him our budget too. Not much option, we left with the last possible item. But he kindly serve us by giving us the details of that watch, even to the colors and photos of those different colors. And finally he asked us to wait while he's trying to check if there's still available in stock.

So we're waiting for 30 minutes, standing there, wondering if these worth our time & energy. It's quite tiring and boring standing there in the small shop while we could do many more other things. Hoping that all these effort worth something at the end. So finally he came back to us, and telling us that both the man & lady model are available, only they're located at two different branches, and he needs to get them. And so the arrangement that he'll get both model, and passed it to shop near my work place, that i can collect it after work.

What a remarkable attitude & service that I thought worth mentioning and learning. I could not believe that I could still get this kind of first class service here in Singapore . For he served us wholeheartedly, setting aside other customers, focusing on his job, trying his best instead of the common service I usually get, "sorry we don't have, we don't know, we can't do it, etc.."

Just wondering if his attitude as result as his belief, that customer is king

And if yes, something worth remembering, how to serve a king.

clay

I don't know why, this year I'm so excited for Easter. I pray this spirit will continue, and not only momentarily. The anticipation, the wait, the grandeur, the more I meditate and immerse in the event 2000 years ago, of Jesus' earthly life, his days before the cross, the plan of the ages that God has stated....it's simply overwhelming.

Yesterday i encountered a talk that provoked my thots and hearts. On the issue of praying vs doing. I don't know if I was mistaken as person know only to pray and not doing anything. For i know myself too well that I'm not that kind of person.. I wish that to happen, that I pray more than I do. But even today I still think that I was mistaken, or perhaps the person did not think highly of prayer. 

Few minutes ago, I came across Mat 7:11 - and I think for the first time I realized how beautiful it is. As i read slowly word by word, it comes out so wonderful. Jesus was saying to the people: "IF you who are EVIL/ evil men....yet you KNOW to give GOOD gifts to your children (true fact), then comes the mind blowing statements....HOW MUCH moooorrrreee, Your Father in Heaven will give GOOD to those who ASK him?"

That's to me really beautiful. If, evil men know how to give good gifts to their children. How much more Good Heavenly Father will give?? So much more!!

Evil men ....even though they're evil, yet they know.... Can't God be better than them?

Evil men know how to give. Can't God know better to give than them?

Evil men know how to give good gifts. Can't God know better to give good gifts than them? Can't His gift better than their gifts? Can't His giving be better than their givings?

Certainly YES. So much more for those who'are asking Him. 

clay

This morning I felt disappointed with the turn out event that the class I was looking forward was replaced by something below my standard. I'd woke up early, skpped my breakfast, just to be on time to enjoy my favorite lecture. Then the whole things were changed to lesser than my expection. It was a lecture on communication, where we're taught of comunication problems and some skills to communicate better.

Well, i don't believe in communication as key success or failure in marriage. It has more than that. For these people already know how to communicate effectively. How to be good speaker and good listener. During their dating days, or even at work, these people are good communicator. So the problem is not at the skills that they lack some skills / knowledge. But the problem lies deeper in marital bliss or troubles.

So as I took some quiet times in the afternoon, to be alone in upper room, reading my Bible. I was reminded again, the key to transformation to the image of Christ is by beholding His glory (2 Cor 3 : 18), and then the communication lesson struck me.

Only trhough communication that we get to know the other person. Without communication, we don't really understand the other person. In communication we hear and we clearify things, so that at the end, we understand the person exactly for what the person is truly saying and meant. The same that I learnt in my relationship with pen2x. It took a lot of times to communicate. And so relationship with the Lord. It's more than just "quiet times". It's time to communicate with Him. Understanding Him as person and also His will and desire and mind. Hence for the person who spending time with Him, it's not difficult to understand His will. But for person who seldom spending time with Him, then His will become something difficult / vague.

I must thank then this morning communication lesson