clay

This morning i began the day with pondering upon Ps 90. And for the first time i see it as prayer. Hehe....so long i saw it just like any other Psalms. But this morning i read the first line, it's a prayer...and i then understand few things which does not make sense initially.

As something i've been struggling for the past few days, about stress & peace ... balancing time. And part of the answer was found there ... God who is from everlasting to everlasting, the creator of time Then as i was taking my morning shower, the song "Be Still" by Hillsong kept coming to me. For i love the reff: "Father you are king... and I'll be still know You are God".

Indeed i'm reminded, God my Father is King. And knowing that...can be still.

clay

Without i realised, i've become so engrossed with doing, that everything become tasks to be done. And only yesterday, when i've nothing more to do, sitting there....i felt so akward and restless. Then i realise, what the doings has done to me...i becoming more tense and losing ability to simply enjoy things. Though i can still enjoy things around me, yet they are no longer simple enjoyment....but tasking...like i'm putting it as a task to enjoy....while true enjoyment simply comes naturally without need of any external pressure / force.

Today i thought doing things slower, and enjoying the passing moments. It's tough...as i've been so accustomed to always doing and thinking for the past few months. O Lord, help me to get back the simple i am, who can relax and simply enjoy letting out this soul in songs.

clay

Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it. ...

... But he would feed you with the finest of the wheat,

   and with honey from the rock I would satisfy you." (Ps 81 : 10b, 16)

Indeed, true fun and satisfaction is only found in God alone.

While the world is screaming louder for more entertainments,

and human are buying more into the industry.

Xbox 360 newer version next year will be able to detect humans movement

It's the longing of every human's heart, to have fun.

But today God is teaching me, as a father telling his boy...

If u really want to have fun, listen to me.

For true fun is not found in entertainment ...

our own definition of happiness and enjoyment ... which often times very far from his idea

but true fun, only for those who listens to Him ...

as He promised, the finest, the sweetest, (which only He can give) he will fill us with. 

clay

Yesterday i slept abt 3.30 am, to finish sorting out the photos for the wedding. Then again this morning, i woke up still feeling did not have enough sleep...

The feeling is bad ... 

And i read article on how a new father struggle to go through life ... waking up in the middle of night (daily) to change diaper and put to sleep the new baby ... I felt much comforted ... at least it's not uncommon to have this feeling. Trying to cope with the day ...

clay

Lately i've found new things to enjoy...to watch the animal planet

In the past i did not pay much attention to this animal world, but lately i began to appreciate the beauty and wisdom of God in this area ... how wonderful indeed And i can see animal so closely through TV ..hehe...

This evening, the program particularly interest me because about the mother eagle (was searching abt it yesterday but couldn't find anything helpful even in google). It struck me ... to see...how those powerful claws to kill and strong hooked beak to eat meat now turned to protect and care for the baby eagles. ... The same as i watched how tiger and crocodile mothers use their sharp teeth in handling their young ones. The same part that once used for attack and killing .... on another time used to protect and care... Such was the mother's instinct.

And was amazed how mothers brought up their youngs ... they know the timing, the methods ... when to feed and when to let them become independent. Teaching them step by step, showing them and then leave them to perfect their skills to survive and live on their own.

I'm just amazed how God design these animals ... 

Even as this afternoon looking at newborn baby So small and tiny

There's beauty in birth & life ... certainly i think because it's one of God's attribute and divine image. Creation & Life ... both His very first work.