clay

As it's written, "we are being transformed into His likeness" - (2 Cor 3:18). So do we physically as well in this present life. Without realizing it, couples who grow old together, growing to look alike also.

What's true of human's relationship, also true with our relationship with God.

The more we relate to Him, the deeper our relationship goes, we are growing to look like Him.

Isn't it beautiful?

We know that our relationship is growing when our appearance getting more alike...hehe...

clay

Last sat, finally i had the long awaited chance to run again. While pen was still sleeping, i changed to running outfit and dashed into the place i found the week before. Then as usual, enjoying myself; like bird in the air ...

In 15 mins, suddenly the sky turn dark and the wind blew strongly. And i know that rain would be coming soon. A heavy downpour likely. Then, a 'mischieveous' thought came to mind. "Let me see if pen would worry about me, despite her sleeping in very nice weather." So i time myself, so that when the rain came, I would have arrive home.

Soon afterwards, the rain came and I caught some of it. So when arrived home, it's a happy feeling, then i slipped in quietly so not to wake pen. Then i heard she screamed calling my name. So i found her still in bed, half sleeping...but she concerns about her husband who's running outside when rained heavily.

There i know, that she really loves me

That's i think how God feels about in the parables of lost sheep, coin, and son. He feels the lost, because He really loves. 

clay

Called mum just now, and brought back many heart-warming memories & lessons.

Just now even as I slowed down and reflecting on my attitude towards pen,

my heart grew softer and warmer. Appreciation started to bloom. Tender care and gentle touch, soft voice...

I think it's a bit of God's heart towards us.

Compassionate God, who feels for mankind, even in our pain and sufferings.

And then that I remember again the old well known stories of footprints

It's been quite long time since I appreciate it.

And tonite again I see how beautiful it's against the backdrops of all happened surround.

When we feel God has abandoned us, during the path that we think is the hardest.

That's when actually God is the nearest, showing His most compassion, bearing & holding us.

As prophet Jeremiah sang, "But this I call to mind, therefore I have hope: 'The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end...'". (Lam 3 : 21-22)

clay

Yesterday morning as I'm on train for work, my eyes saw my hand that holding tightly to the hanging-handle.

The first thing that caught my eyes was the wedding ring.

And I remembered the woman who I married to.

Then I realized something...

The questions that I's asking ... 

Why is it so difficult to live as follower of Jesus?

Why is it so tiring?

Why is it so hard, the struggle to put to death what belongs to our sinful nature?

Why there're so few who're serious about their faith?

Why there're so many nominal faith?

I think, the answer is not very far from a wedding ring.

Because we've forgotten what's marriage.

We've forgotten that in marriage, the two becomes one. They're no longer two individuals. But one body.

And that truth really hit me hard then and now.

That I'm now married.

I can no longer do things that I like, whithout thinking of the consequences / implications to my wife.

(pause)

Come back to the faith thing.

We've forgotten that what Jesus' demands from us, is a marriage. It's not just to fling around like what the culture here lives out. Today we're together, tomorrow we're on our own ways. Even in marriages nowdays people see and do it that way. No wonder that faith and commitment also very shallow.

Now whenever I see my wedding ring, it reminds me of two things.

I am married. My life is no longer mine.